Good Day my little foodies....
June of (Doug and June) is on vacation at one of my most favorite places in the world..Daytona Beach Shores in Florida.. It almost didn't happen, as I was in hospital for the six days prior with a severe kidney infection, kidney stones, and other yukky stuff. But truly, it is tough to break vacation plans, especially one you have been planning on and waiting for. So, on Friday, when the doc told me he would like me to stay a few more days for observation...mmm..I said no..I have a plane to catch tomorrow. But I am a good girl, and promised as soon as I get back to see my GP and the urologist and various and sundry other medicos. So I am on vacation, not much worse for where..I have decided I must have no veins, because of the multiple IV sites and their various shades of purple..(50 shades of purple???) and anyone who has had lovanox injections can tell you how attractive black and blue marks the size of a dinner plate are on your abdomen..especially 5 of them in different places on your belly...(I think I see the face of Keith Richard in one!!!).
And, voila, here I am on the beach..this morning drinking in a gorgeous sunrise of pinks and streaks of purple, slowly kissing the ocean good morning...the waves are a bit higher than normal from stormy weather off the coast (vestiges of Hurricane Leslie)..whitecaps that are majestic as they are beautiful. Here on Daytona Beach Shores, one has the warming effect of the Gulf Stream.. so unlike beaches on Cape Cod..the water is warm and soothing. Another huge difference is the beach itself..in Florida it is devoid of the rocks, jagged shells, razor sharp dried seaweed that are indicative of New England beaches. The sand here is soft, smooth and pale. I am sitting, enjoying my first cup of Earl Grey tea over looking the ocean, listening to the rumble of the waves as they crash in. The beach is empty save a few seabirds preening. But I know it wont be but a few hours before it will be a jumble of juvenile architects building sandcastles, insane and intrepid surfers, various exercise affectionados walking /running on the beach and the equally daring waders.
No one has really been swimming, the power of the waves as they crash in easily knock you down and the undertow draws you in. Even I don't swim in this beach water, but plant my feet in the swirling sands..look over the water rather moodily..content in my aloneness ... I do avoid the beach in all the daytime turbulence, preferring early morning and late evenings.
Most people don't like the beach at night..it is deserted and bereft of all artificial light. Some people here have described it to me as "too spooky". But I think they are missing the allure of the moon reflecting off the ocean water and the water caressing it like a lover. I stare at the scene and contemplate my place and purpose here. I always believed when I was in my fifties, I would be settled..content... and nothing could be further from the truth. One thing I have realized about myself is my constant striving to be "better" to be "successful"... the need to be adaptable, open, willing to take risks...to dream, to hope, to desire.. "and win some or learn some". I don't measure success by money or power...ever. My goal is to be kind and good..to be loving and caring..to touch lives in a positive way...to make everyone I meet a little richer for having met me...if I can so that..then I am a success.
Geminis are the archetypal youth..our dual nature putting one foot in childlike enthusiasm and the other in nurturing determination. And personal growth is essential to the Gemini.. and to love me you have to understand that. At times, I may seem certifiably crazy, wildly impractical, intensely romantic, and abhorrent of monotony and boredom. But that's not all of me either. I can also be sensible, reliable, strong, dependable..(I sound like a paper towel...damn). I like to describe myself with a dreamer with my feet firmly planted in the stars. When I need to talk, I talk and when I need to act, I act. I am a loyal friend and devoted lover. I do approach my relationships with passionate energy. (And I tend to drag the people I love along with me...sometimes kicking and screaming..damn Capricorns..lol). I don't do things in half measures. And although, sometimes my judgement may be a bit askew... I always enjoy the ride (and make sure you do too)! My strengths can be my weaknesses...so I need to be aware and not blissfully ignorant (as I would love to be..lol). Who is fond of life, fun and pleasure? Who is adaptable and doesn't fear change?? Who loves attention without any limit??? It is the Gemini.When the Gemini woman falls in love, the fun, adventure, and romance are all-consuming. Geminis are always on the go. So you better be ready! They will expect much affection and much attention.She can be your best buddy and talk to you about anything. She can join all your activities with the same energy that you have. She wants to find only one true love and she wants to meet her dream guy. She expects a lot and usually gets it. She will not lie. She will work hard and once in a while take a long rest. Once you get to know her, she will be a supportive person and always be beside you. She has a beautiful dream and she loves to have someone walk side by side with her, together and equally.
A very dear and wise friend has shown me that my guardian spirit right now is a white wolf. A white wolf symbolizes hope, and the ability live long in a good and/or bad situation. This wolf helps you pull through so you can live your dreams and conquer your fears. Native Americans believed that it has been sent to protect you...some peoples believe it is the spirit of a protector(family member, friend, etc). What can she show me about myself? Well the white wolf is the phantom wolf.. the teacher, the protector, intuition. She is strong and loyal, a teacher, a wanderer and a family guardian. She she speaks of survival in the toughest of environments. She teaches stamina and determination, and the ability to stand up and thrive in situations that would break many others. She walks beside me lending me her strength and medicine A female wolf is a creature of community. She's rarely alone. She shares responsibilities of family with her pack. She is loyal to a fault, some she-wolves have died trying to save one of their own pack members from danger. So being loyal to a fault isn't necessarily good, but it ain't that bad either. I prefer looking at it as being loyal with acceptance. A female wolf is territorial and not afraid of fighting for her home or pack. She is a little jealous of those she doesn't know or trust and will often try to put herself between her home/family and others. It's an act of protection, not possession. And in typical wolf fashion, she is also on guard to sense the slightest changes in energy for good or bad.
Do you think you know about me? Well, no..I am sorry you dont'. I am complex at best and confusing and contradictory at worst. Most who think they know me only are scratching at the surface... Very, very few, I will let in, because those I let in, I know can destroy me as easily as love me. And I have a terrible habit of putting the people I love through "tests"... making them "prove" their worth to me. Only then, can I let down my guard...only then do I let you get close enough. I then I become completely devoted and fiercely protective. I will do anything for those I love... and I mean anything!! Yeah, like I said there are less than a handful of people I have that kind of devotion for..and you know who you are! If you are wondering, it's not you. Cause those I love, KNOW I love them. I am so blessed to have wonderful people in my life. And I never take them for granted.
A vacation can be a respite for the body, but never for the mind... it is the perfect time to explore yourself.. without restraint. The perfect time to dream, to hope, and to plan how to make some of those dreams a reality.
I wish you all some solitude and peace. And I urge you to never give up on your dreams.. "lose your dreams and you will lose your mind".
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